Things Brooke-Lynn says

So Brooke was at Grandma's house about a week ago, and was asked if she would like some juice. Brooke of course said yes and so my mom got out some tomato juice and Brooke-Lynn promptly replied sorry Grandma my doctor said I can't drink it.  Then just the other night at dinner Dave had a Dr. Pepper and Brooke had apple juice. She looked over at Dave and said my doctor said I can not drink that type of juice. I can only have apple juice. She is so silly.  Saturday night I had put her to bed, and I was cleaning up around the house and I heard her fussing. I went in to check on her and she told me that she was missing her baby sister and baby brother. I told her that we just have to wait and be patient. She told me that it is really hard to wait. I know sweetheart it is hard for me too.  Mommy? Yes Brooke. Grandpa Merrill is taking care of them right? Yes love he is, and when it is their turn they will come and join us.

our Eternal family

On Saturday October 16, 2010 at 2:00 in the afternoon my family became eternal. Nothing can separate us now.  It was the most wonderful tender experience EVER.  I could not help but smile all day knowing that I will always be with my family.  Brooke-Lynn looked just like an angel wearing all white. She loved looking in the mirrors, that went on and on. She and all of us there felt the spirit so strong there that day.   

the temple ;)

David and I were able to go the Columbia River Temple on Saturday the 25th. It was David's first time and my first time going with him. It was AMAZING!! I was waiting waiting for him in the Celestial room, my mom told me it was OK to sit down on a couch and wait for him. There was NO WAY I was going to sit and wait for him, as soon as I saw him I gave him the biggest tightest hug ever. I love that man.  Now we just wait until Saturday October 16 at 2:00pm and then we will be sealed together FOREVER!! YEAH

It seems like it may never happen.

David and I have been married for almost a year. November 7 is our anniversary. So since then we have been trying to have a baby(or babies) As you my or may not know it has been SOO hard for me. We found out last December that we were indeed excpecting. :) Happy news of course and then on my birthday we found out I misarried. Sad news. Then January came I had a tubal pregnancy and I'm very blessed for the preisthood in my life or honestly I do not think I would be here. So we fast forward to June. We are on a family vacation in Oregon with wonderful friends of ours. I took a test and yes we were pregnant.  I was soo EXCITED and nervous at the same time. My wonderful husband gave  me a blessing and I thought that it meant that the baby would be fine and nothing was going to happen. WRONG!!! Again. miscarried the first of July.  The Doctor had blood work done to make sure there was nothing preventing me from having a healthy baby. Everything came back fine. Now is where me being patient comes in. So for the most part  I am a very patient person, but not when it comes to this whole not having a baby situation. I'm really not trying to be selfish at all. Sorry if it comes across that way. I just keep praying and now I have to let go and leave it in Heavenly Father's hands and know that He knows best for me, and just TRUST him.

My Brooke-Lynn

So I have a TON of pictures of my spunky little girl so this post will be all about her and her crazy things she does and or says. I love having a little girl and can not wait until I am able to give her a brother and sister.

What an anmazing year!

So last year at this time I went to a single adult conference. There I met David and Brooke-Lynn We met on Saturday May 16, 2009. We went on our first date on the 22nd and have been together ever since. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and daughter in my life, 

GRR!!

So, as you all know my biological father died last Friday night. They are having a memorial service for him tomorrow morning in Wenatchee. At first I was going to go to the memorial service thing, but Don was never a part of my life and I barely knew anyone on his side of his family (his children or siblings) I got a text from Noreen my half sister asking why I was not going to attend. I told her that Brooke and I are not feeling that good. She replied that I need to go because it is part of the grieving process. Though I'm not sad that he died, I'm not happy, so I guess I'm indifferent about the whole thing.  So, they can ask me all they want to but I will not be attending the memorial service. I'm happy with my life and feel that if I were to attend it would just bring up questions that will never be answered and possibly anger.

sad news.

So, I was at the Women's conference that my stake (Kennewick East) had put on. I was in line for some lunch, when I noticed that my phone was vibrating. I picked it up, because I noticed it was my sister Noreen's number. Well, it was my brother Ray on the phone telling me that my father had passed away last night. I did not hear him at first so I had him repeat what he had just said. He told me again and I was and still in a bit of shock.  He and my mom divorced when I was little and my mom remarried the man I called dad and whom I'm sealed too. It just makes me sad that he passed away. I wish I had known him better, or something. It's almost like my dad (Merrill) passing away again.  On a brighter note the women's conference was amazing!!

Brooke-Lynn

So Last Saturday the 13th  Brooke and were in the living room doing something. She comes up to me (out of the blue) and says to me, Mommy Heavenly Father loves you. I tell her He loves you too, very serious she tells me I know that mom. Then she goes on to tell me that Jesus is going to put two babies in my tummy a baby girl and a baby boy. She then put her hand on my tummy and said Jesus will put the babies in your tummy as soon as it feels better, almost all better she said. It took all I had not to cry. So then at Walmart today she said the same thing. I do not know where she is getting this, except from the spirit.

My lovely hospital stay :(

So last Monday January 25, 2009 I was admitted to Kennewick General Hospital. OK here is the back story, I was at work watching Jason the 15 month old. He was still sleeping when Jessica the mom came home from work. I got up to leave and I had a ringing in my ear and what I called swirly vision. Work is not too far from home.(I work by the Union building and live by the Olympia building) Ok I was driving home and I got a pain in the left side of my stomach, almost like I had to pee really bad. Well, I said a prayer to help me make it home, and had to have Dave help me out of the truck.  Well, I got inside and was sweating so bad that I had taken my shirt off. I could not get comfortable at all. I had Dave call for a blessing for me, so Brother Hayter and Mike Davidson came over and gave me a blessing. so at this point Dave was already late for work and had to get going, my mom was there with me and Brooke-Lynn so I decided I was going to lay on my mom's bed while they started to switch rooms. That did not last very long at all. I ended up in my room in terrrible pain and just plain feeling crappy. My mom ended up calling my sister Kathleen and she took Brooke-Lynn for us and the ambulance came and took me in. I know I was not doing good because I did not refuse to go to the hospital at all, and I can not stand them. So I get to the ER, and they try I swear a million times times to either start an IV they finally did after a few hours of being there. I ended up having an ectopic or tubal pregnancy. So I had to have surgery that night at about 10:00. They started at the belly button and then moved a little lower down and finished and just above my hairline. Come to find out I was super blessed, I had about a liter of blood in my tummy area. I'm just glad to to be home recooping.

Oh to be pregnant

I so wish I was 8 or so weeks pregnant and not having to deal with a dumb miscarriage. I'm doing better, there are just days where I just break down. I always thought that a miscarriage early on in your pregnancy was the baby way too excited to get a body, maybe I do not know. Hopefully I will get pregnant again soon and this time the baby better stick for the whole time.

productive weekend :)

This weekend was very productive. Got stuff for a surprise birthday and then of course attended the b-day party. Saturday cleaned out my storage and kicked my husband's butt in wii bowling. Sunday church was good. Went to dinner at my cousin Jen and her Husband Scott's place. We played Rage and Farkle I let them beat me farkle. ;) Yesterday was an absolutely beautiful day. the girls (Brooke-Lynn and Maleah) played outside for hours. I got blood work done, the house cleaned including the fridge. It was GROSS!! Throe Dave's mouse hawk he made and he taught me how to shoot his bow and arrow. I was pretty dang good. Had a nice yummy dinner and then played Yahtzee. The missionaries came over and shared a spiritual thought with us. Good weekend.